Death

Today, one of the patient, Mrs Jpassed away.

She came with abscess but this morning she has cardiac arrest. 

I remember talking to her constantly every week to see her smile at me.

I always meet her daughter to talk about mom.

And today, her daughter called me while I am clerking.

She notice my presence.

And told me that her mom pass away this morning due to cardiac arrest.

An immediately I remember talking to her mother last night. 

Her mom looks ill but still manage to smile at me.

We never know when is our last day.

This field of job constantly remind me of death. Death is near. Death can come unexpectedly.

To Allah we come, To Allah we shall return.

May Allah ease you makcik,

May Allah give strength to your family to face this situation. 

Hi

It has been a while.

Hi blog, hi social media.

Uninstalled my instagram 5 weeks ago because am too melagha with instagram.
Uninstalled my twitter, deactivated few months back sebab melagha jugak.
Nyaris uninstall fb tapi kejap je sebab susah benar nak update kat group fb.

Am becoming leader for surgery. My first time being leader for group. Nobody knows. Hahaa
Am currently bound to hospital. Everyday is hospital day even on weekend.
Am not confident yet but Allah helps me a lot as Prof A was shock that I got myself 2nd highest marks in class in our sudden exam without notice. He never expected me to do so.
So, basically see you can do it. All you need to do is do your best and Tawakkal.

Tawakkal ialah mengenai hati dan tidak dimanifestasikan dengan perbuatan. - Amru Khalid

Am currently emo one, dont know why, because of headache, and my runny nose.
Am hurting everyone near me.

May Allah give me peace and May Allah ease us.

DNR

There was a guy with trache, NG tube all restless for the past few years.
Beside him, standing a young pretty lady who is his wife.
Dr discuss with her regarding DNR.

If patient heartbeat stop, would you want me to resucitate the patient ?
She tried her best not to cry,
But Dr told her that she has been taking care her husband devotely for the past few years. If heartbeat stop, condition will not improve if you gain back the heartbeat, it can be worse.
They may said that you are cruel for agreeing with DNR, but they did not know what you have been done for the past few years only for him. They did not know how much and how strong you are to face all this problem.

She stay silent and cry.
Me too , crying deep down inside.

Thank youu

Today i am fasting, i am supertired walking from ward  to the main building, need to cross road,
bila balik dari ward , weather was hot, and i was so tired and taklarat.
In my heart, i pray that Allah will send someone to help us, bawak pergi bangunan seberang jalan.
And suddenly, a car stop beside us, it is DC, the head of department, pangkat JUSA tauu.
asking us to follow him, he will drop us there.
We awkwardly naik je tapi 3-3 duduk kat seat belakang like a boss.  Hahaaa

Alhamdulillah, Allah grant my doa instantly and make me stronger,
May Allah ease you DC  for your kindness.

Young

Today i met a young boy, a 15 years old boy,
I assume he come from rich family because of some personal data,
some more I talk to his brother sebaya my adik.
He is sick, having major surgery of heart during his primary school,
and currently maybe having infection of the heart,

I saw him reading al mathurat
and he is the one who will pray every time masuk waktu.
Looking at him make me thinks,
even he can do all this things while he is sick, why not us ?
he surely doesnt have lot of friends due to his ilness, coming back and forth from hospital and so on.
May Allah ease you Adik,
May Allah ease all of your family. InsyaAllah. (':

Hard

Met this one pakcik and his wife,
Yesterday morning he looks okayy, still be able to laugh and make joke to us,
But in the evening, it turns to be the saddest day for both of them,
Doctor told him, he has stage 4 lung cancer.
That night, he sleep while holding his daughter's picture, missing her so much.
Sometimes, smallest thing you can do to comfort them is to listen.
They have a lot of things to say. And you just have to listen.
May Allah give their family strength to face this.
May Allah ease them.


"Mak, kat sekolah, kesian kawan adik, ayah dia meninggal sebab cancer."
And currently her mom doesn't know how to tell her daughter that her father has lung cancer stage 4.

May Allah ease

Hari ini

Today, 

I met a lady in the ward who have PPH during last delivery and now the complication is hypoxic - ischemic encephalopathy. 

Her husband is waiting patiently everyday taking care of the patient.

Even if patient is semi consciuss.

I wonder how about their child? 

Maka, bersyukurlah. Tak semua insan bernasib baik.

Bersyukurlah duhai anak, ibumu bergadai nyawa melahirkanmu.

Besyukurlah isteri, ada suami setia disisi.

Today.

I met a lady who attempted suicide by holding gas pipe in close car. 

Luckily, the engine of he car is off.

If the car is on, the woman die.

With one decision, you die.

If and only if you know, nyawa ini pinjaman Tuhan buat kita beribadah,

Adakah kau akan sia siakan? 

If and only if you know, hidup di dunia ini hanya sekali,

Will you live that way? Will you ?